Episode 30--Welcome to Mom First! This podcast helps working moms ditch the overwhelm and stress so they are happier and more fulfilled each day. You have a lot going on, and I get that you are a Mom First--and so much more too!
Come with me on this episode, where I share my personal journey and mission to create more joy in my life and to inspire other moms (including working moms) to do the same.
Yes, I know you have a lot on your plate. Same, Girl, same! I know the meal prep, commute, laundry, and zoom meetings feel endless. And that every free minute you devote to your kids.
And I'm here to tell you that if you want your kids to grow up to live lives full of happiness, connection, and meaning. Then guess what!? You go first!
Here I'll share with you how I came to this realization, and what I did about during a time when I was really struggling. You'll learn specific ways to implement a joy practice in your life and create more joy on purpose. Let's go!
Between the commute, the zoom meetings, meal prep, laundry, and all the kids’ activities, who has time for joy? The answer to that question is, you, you my friend, you have time for joy. You deserve joy. And on this episode I’m going to give you a quick primer on how to make it happen. Are you ready, let’s go?
Today’s episode, I’m taking you straight to the purpose of this whole podcast. I started this podcast to create more joy in my own life.
Look, I’m a working mom just like so many of you. As moms, we are all spread super thin. This week I had to just straight up buy 2 of my kids new swimsuits, because I cannot find their swimsuits currently. They are lost somewhere in our house, or car, or at the cabin. Who knows? Could be anywhere! And I’m the go to whenever anyone can’t find anything. How’s it work at your house? Is that one of your jobs too?
Between work, the commute, the zoom meetings, the meal prep, the laundry, and all the running for kids activities, it seemed like I hardly ever had time or space for joy in my life. Last summer and fall, I was in a pretty rough spot. I had gotten everything I had ever wanted. An incredible husband and 5 beautiful, healthy, kind, hilarious, smart, awesome kids. A meaningful job! A house, even a cabin. Are you kidding me? But I had hit this spot where I was like super numb. I was so incredibly happy when I was with my kids, but beyond that I could hardly feel anything. In the past, if this had ever happened, I would throw myself into more of something–more work, more activities, more projects. But none of that was working this time. I just couldn’t feel happy or joyful, unless I was just with my kids. And even that could only last so long, right, because they hae other things to do and its not their job to make me happy.
And in fact, that’s really just what happened. In the Summer and Fall of 2021, things were really beginning to open back up after the pandemic, kids were going back to school, baby to daycare fulltime, activities were pretty much back in full swing, and I was–just like–number.
It was like, somehow in all of the hullabaloo of pandemic, and the working through the pandemic sometimes ridiculous hours, the eschool, and adding a puppy and baby human to our family–it was like I lost myself.
I knew that for me, for my marriage, for my family, I needed to get to the bottom of what was happening. And so, I tried a bunch of things. I started seeing a therapist every other week. That didn’t help me with this. I exercised. It didn’t help. I ate better. It didn’t help. I cut back on nursing a bit once my daughter turned 1 and that didn’t help–thinking more sleep and less stress from that would help. I started using my PTO at work, thinking I just needed a break it didn’t help. Even if things got better during the break, i’d feel the same way when I went back.
In fact, to be honest, those things, it was almost like doing them and still feeling this way, made things worse. I regularly felt like if just one more thing went wrong, I would melt into a puddle of tears on the floor.
And not only did I have that numbness and struggle with feel exhausted and burnt out. But I also felt so guilty and ashamed for feeling that way. I had so much appreciation for every person and everything in my life. And yet, my feelings weren’t reflecting that. My attitude was not where I wanted it. So, for a while, I really beat myself up about that.
And obviously that didn’t help! Have any of you ever experienced that?
Again, I knew that there had to be something more. I have this belief, that we are meant to be here, on this planet. With the people that we are with. That we are meant to be here to experience. To create. To love and be loved. To give generously and to receive with appreciation and an open heart. To be joyfilled. To have fun. To play.
Because honestly, at the end of the day, what else is there. You can have billions of dollars. You can have sacrificed your health and mind for a cause. You could have even saved lives. But if you did not live your own life. If you did not love. If you did not joy. If you did not appreciat that sparkle in your child’s eye. If you did not hold on tight for all the snuggles. If you did not take the time and opportunity to make those memories with your kids. If you did not do those things. Then what was it worth. If you were unhappy. If you were miserable.
And so I had this belief. This belief that we are here to experience happiness and joy. To have love and be loved. To create, to play–to feel joy! To have joy, connection, meaning. All of that.
And yet–I was not living into that belief. There was this huge disconnect.
I watched my kids so closely that fall. They were so excited for everything that was happening as the world was opening back up. And I knew that if I wanted to be the kind of mom that I wanted for them, that I had to shake things up for myself. I realized that if I wanted them to live lives full of meaning, connection, and joy, I was going to have to do that too. I had to set the example. I had to show them how. I had to go first.
And so that’s what I did.
And I started with joy. I started by deciding that I was going to do things out of joy everyday and that I was going to do that regardless of what I looked like, what others thought, or how it made others feel. I was just going to do it. If it meant looking dumb, making a fool of myself… if it meant late nights and rejection. If people cared too much or not at all, I just didn’t care anymore. I was going to do it.
I made that decision in October 2021. And I’ve been taking small steps in that direction of joy–creating more and more joy each day. And my life has changed so much since then. It feels like 3 years. Its not even been 1.
And, what I want you to know… because I hear your brain already coming up with all the excuses right now. even while doing that, even while creating the joy, I’m still working full time. I’m still moming all the time. And I say that not because I’m super mom. Eww gross. I’m not a fan of that term. I say it because I want you to see that it is possible to be a mom–even a mom that wears a lot of hats–and still have joy at the same time.
And here’s how I did it. How I am doing it.
Okay my friends. Thank you for this episode. If this resonated with you, be sure to head over to the Mom First Podcast page on facebook. Can’t wait to see you there!